Be Still and Become | Life Path

Everyone has their own path, the question is whether we realize it or not.

We often compare ourselves with someone else, our friends, our neighbors, even random people we see on Instagram. We see people that are successful in their career, while others are blessed with a loving family. What we do not realize is whatever we think we see is actually other people’s path, which is unique to each individual, and they are not ours.

Do we have our own path? The answer is yes. Our path has started ever since we’re still in our mother’s womb. Every decision we make will lead to the path we choose, any life condition will contribute to the creation of those decisions. Hence, we need to be aware of our decision, we need to be sure that whatever decision we make, will bring us to the path we’re willing to walk on.

As human beings, we’re often clouded by the chaos in our mind brought by the social condition and the false belief we carry by unresolved past trauma. If we don’t have a clear mind, how can we see the path that was laid before us? Imagine we are surrounded by a very thick smoke, we need to find the source of the smoke and probably put the fire out before we can move forward with clarity.

As my shifu said ‘Your path is what you have walked through your life, it is just now you are more conscious and take more responsibilities on what you want to do in life’.

If we notice throughout our life, there are consistencies in things we do or like, that give a hint of our path. For my case, I always build a self image as a strong independent woman, as if nothing in this world is able to bring me down. To be seen as weak is something I avoid, I’ll beat myself up to chase that image as if I lose I will break down. Through the healing process I know that behind those strengths I demonstrated, there’s a soft spot, a heart so tender and vulnerable that I don’t want to hurt. But humans can only do so much, till one day my own strength started to eat me up. I came out from the battle bruised and defeated. I realized I have been pushing myself too hard and what I need is self love. Self Love has been my theme ever since, yet it has been my path throughout my life. It was just that I had not realized it yet.

Helping people to love themselves as I’ve been helped to love mine has been the purpose of my life. Again, if I had not gone through that healing process, I will not be able to see clearly what direction I want my life to be.

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About Be Still and Become : Be Still and Become is an in-depth spiritual learning module developed by Wakuha — By writing this essay, she allowed me to learn, assess while at the same time speak with my own understanding about each of the lesson learned.

Note to readers : I’m not a professional writer. One of the reason for me to write this essay is to share my journey with you and hope somehow it can give you inspiration or even courage to move with your own journey. Maybe some of you read this essay because you have seen a glimpse of my story in IG, which then I can tell you it is not the whole story and will never be, but nor did this essay. This essay was written based on my limited knowledge of life and as a human being I might be deluded to my own perception.

Another reason is to speak my truth, but sometimes the truth is a pill that is hard to chew. If somehow you find my story a bit too hard to resonate with, I can understand and maybe it is not the right time for us yet.